the bucket list.

• travel: us (new york, las vegas legally, florida, redwood forest again, washington, others i can't think of), india, france, england, amsterdam, russia, india, japan, australia, antarctica, africa, brazil. i want to go to every continent.
• boob shots (give and take)
  
• write a book
• attend an "anything but clothes" party
  
• save someone's life
• skydive
• change someone's life forever
• find happiness
• tell people i love that i love them
• make amends
• climb a big mountain
• fall madly in love and have a family with said person
• knit a full body suit
• sleep outside (completely outside, not in a tent)]
• have my own garden with carrots in it
• learn to cook
• win some sort of championship
  
• live near the ocean
• scuba dive in australia and mexico and anywhere else
  
• rescue something or someone from something or someone
• be able to to chin ups
• give birth naturally with no meds
• road trip with friends
• make knitted things and sell them
• work with addicts to get them clean from whatever it is
• learn muay thai or some form of butt kicking
• live my life without regret
• go see mt. rushmore
• make 1000 paper cranes (in progress...)
• climb the stairs (all the way, to the top) of the CN tower
• remain cavity free
  

some of these are obviously more short term than others.
this list isn't finished, and i will add more when i think of them.
the reason i'm writing this, is because i need to move forward and focus on things in my future, and i want to make my future good for myself...i want it to be amazing.
i want to take life in stride, be able to deal with whatever i am dealt, and be happy despite anything bad that happens.
i need that, i deserve that.