random thoughts.

i miss thailand.
i was thinking today, why i miss it.
i miss it's calmness.
people there are not angry, or hurried, or rude.
sure there are times when it's annoying to have tuktuks whistling for a ride, or when old women from tribes try to sell you jewellry....but they aren't angry like people are here.

i read a girl's blog today, i used to work with her but didn't really know her.
it seems something bad is happening, and it makes me sad.
i probably won't ever talk to her again, but somehow it affects me.
i am sad.

i am hungry.
my stomach is growling.
i want more than what is now.

i need to know what people expect of me.
i need to know what people want with me.
am i merely a way to pass time, or am i something to make time for?
this is all very confusing.

in the past few months, i have been the least stressed that i've been in years.
years.
hopefully health will respond.
almost everyone at my job, most of my friends, and some of my family have gotten sick lately.
i have not.
i take this as a good sign.