life lessons.

1) don't be rude to me when you tell me shit about a person you don't know.
2) why do you feel the need to tell me this shit when you know it's probably BS and it'll make me anxious?
3) it's stressful making sure people don't die.
4) it's amazing watching people heal.
5) i think these feelings are becoming more frequent.

what feelings?
i am apathetic.
towards this place and towards these people.
i am anxious.
about these people and those people.
i am lonely.
because of the physical distance and the emotional distance.

but don't worry, i can put on a good show for you.