it's like you're screaming, and no one can hear.
you almost feel ashamed.
that someone could be that important,
that without them, you feel like nothing.
no one will ever understand how much it hurts.

you feel hopeless,
like nothing can save you.
and when it's over, and it's gone,
you almost wish that you could have all that bad stuff back,
so that you could have the good.


there are many points in my life where things could have gone so differently.
forks in the road were common, and i know i chose some wrong ones.
i do my best to not regret.
but i often catch these thoughts and daydreams niggling in the corner of my mind.
i wish i could rewind to times where i truly felt unconditionally loved.
to be content in my mind and body, because who i'm with erases any doubt.
to be loved and to love back.
i want to feel that raw, purity again.