ah.

so today was the day.
no wonder everything felt off.
i miss you even though i don't know if i met you.
:(

shame.

life win!

***disclaimer***
i apologize if the level of enthusiasm in this post makes you want to vomit.
or actually vomit.
please brush your teeth after.


GAAAAAH I'M GOING TO COSTA RICA!!!
hopefully they keep the exam date what they told me, cause that'd suck if the FON messed up my plans.
holy man!!!
i hope i get baby turtles <3

so i've realized that despite minor glitches in my life plan, aka housing being lame and being so effing slow, unorganized and generally lame at my room transfer, that i still win.
even though i'm not the most efficient studier this week (way too preoccupied with room transfer, home plans, costa rica money coordination, and overall being unmotivated) i think i'll still do ok.
first exam today wasn't bad, there were some really random questions that were literally not covered in the course at all (they were from a class last semester) so that was stupid.
but there were also some really easy ones.
but even if i get 50% i still pass with a pretty good margin.

yays!
1. i got my email from isv saying costa rica at midnight last night as i was trying to do some last minute cramming (obviously i skipped cramming and googled costa rica things).
its a 4 week program but i can also go for an extra week and live with a family and learn spanish (i'm super rusty) so i'm debating doing that too if dates work out.
might as well.
2. exam went ok today, and i'm soooo glad it's done!
now i'll have to buy drug cards and really learn them in clinical.
but that will be easier for me.
3. it's so nice outside! PLUS right outside my hobbit village theres an excavator excavating the street away!!
so good.
and a little steamroller waiting behind to reflatten!
honest if i had no exams i would bring bean bag chair outside and just watch them like a crazy lady.
4. wings right after exams today! and cheap beer!
5.i'm buying scrubs tomorrow! and maybe shoes! and i'll shop friday too yaaay!
6. i get to go home sunday for a week!
ya i'll see my momma and my dad and my puppy and my brothers and my preggo sister (and her crazy mom ugh) and feel baby kick and see amanda when she returns and shotgun beers in jorts with her and little brother woooo!!
7. i'm about to make an egg burrito.

nays.
1. another exam at 2 (yay it'll be over)
2. more cramming tonight and tomorrow for friday :(
3. i need to get housing to let me move aaaauugh.
4. my hip and back hurt from sitting funny and studying so much. blah.

7>4=i win.

things people need to invent.

a knowledge-plugin like the matrix.
but everyone can't know everything, it would have to be restricted somehow.
this way i have to freak out less before exams.

a teleporter.
to get me to the library on time and not waste 10 valuable study minutes walking here (why didn't i bike??!)

that's all i can think of for now because those are currently relevant to me.


oh and a fruit peeler/cutterupper that disposes of the leaves and peels so that i dont have to get all messy making smoothies.

dear neighbour who thinks he can sing but actually can't,

stfu.

why am i awake still?

oh right i forgot to go to bed.
my hair is so soft.
but my boobs are smaller methinks.
booooo.
b.
hah.

recent developments?

potentially.
this puts a smile on my face.
please follow through.

dear universe,

it would be so fantastic if someone was snuggling me right about now.


songs bring back smells, and smells bring back feelings.

DEAR SMELLY BOYS.

what the fuck.
when my girlfriend comes to class upset over you being an asshole you need to go dig a hole and stay there.
and when i hear that you always get drunk and become a jerk to servers and pick fights with huge guys, and that she has to apologize for you, you are an embarrassment.
she shouldn't have to apologize for your sorry ass.
it's pathetic that you're 24 and act like a 15 year old shithead.
if you hide your phone in front of her so you can text other girls, and then lie about who you're with to them, you're a pussy.
and when she tells me that she caught you texting other girls while she was naked next to you i want to stab you in the aorta.
i know i'm a little worked up right now, because i would never actually stab someone's aorta, but i swear if i see you again and you're a douche i will verbally tear you a new one until your ass bleeds so hard you die of hypovolemic shock.

interesting.

be careful of what you say because empty promises and empty threats both end in regret.

in which case, things may go sour and letting that happen is not something on my to do list.

don't smile or your face will crack.

it feels like just yesterday.
my entire life was just yesterday.
tomorrow it will be today.


hey ps guess what we aren't in junior high anymore.

home next weekend <3 <3 <3 <3