when you're ready just say you're ready,
when all the baggage just ain't as heavy,
and the party's over just don't forget me,
we'll change the pace and we'll just go slow.

aaah!

totes magotes that show was better than i ever imagined.
i was so nervous.
but it was so worth it.
best feeling in the world.

he was great.
they were all great.
it was great.

personal record for consecutive hours danced?
9

this week makes me realize how much i need to be back home.
everything that goes on when we get together feels like that's exactly how life should be.
it's so amazing it scares me a little.

can't wait until elements.
old girlfriends, new friends, him.
<3

aah!

so excited for tonight.
i'm gonna dance my pants off (but not literally cause i'm wearing shorts).
hopefully the randoms coming are nice and not slutty.
and hopefully all goes well in calgary this week.

yay for good times with good friends
<3

so sessy.

single + valentine's day = me cooking dinner in my underwear.
oh yes.

dear life,

Y U SO CONFUSING?!?!

yessss!

since january 1 i've been trying to get back in shape.
i've been eating really healthy, lots of fruits and veggies, healthy fats and lean proteins.
i didn't eat fast food at all in january, and so far in feb i've only had dq ice cream once on a friend's birthday.
mind you i still like snacks, i've eaten cake and i've had chocolate pretty frequently (i'll never ever ever give this one up).
i've started working out a few times a week and i feel fantastic.
aside from this week where i've been staying up super late, i've had a lot more energy than before christmas.

but the best part is, i just put on a pair of jeans i haven't been able to wear in about a year (give or take, i don't remember when i put it in my "hopefully these will fit again someday" stash).

i can't even describe this feeling.
as annoyed as i get with some of my friends and people i know for trying to take the easy way out, i have been kicking my own ass into shape and it's actually working.
getting in shape the healthy way is hard but it's completely worth it.

i'm not stopping now, i still want to tone up and be less flabby but this is the first time i tried those pants on since i started.
i was actually nervous to go upstairs and put them on, but i'm so glad i did.

winning!

fml.

now i'm getting anxiety about you and it sucks.
in a perfect world it would all work out.
hopefully i'm overthinking things and nothing is going on.
we'll find out in two weeks.