dear me,

keep your distance,
this isn't your problem anymore.
even if you worry now, it's already happened.
you had no control over it.
you have no control over it.

your gut was right and you did what you needed to do.
that's all you could have done.
that's all you can do.

don't get invested in things that have a history of not working out.






all i truly want is to get in your head,
and steal your imagery.

i can not sleep, i can not dream tonight.

you are the voice inside my head, but sometimes i wish you'd just shut up.


am i the only one that sometimes just feels like along came polly-ing it, leaving everything behind and going someplace where nobody knows me?
but i suppose if that happened i would still have my mind with me, driving me crazy.

aah.

so crappy when you think you don't care, but then at the worst of times you realize that you do in fact care.
it figures.

new goals:
get over it.
get over that other thing too.
and the other one thing i need to get over.
get in shape.
stop procrastinating and do my homework.
do critical life admin and decide where to do clinical....pediatric or forensic?
take my male-caused aggression out in dball.
go to costa rica without any mishaps.
finish school.
get out of here.

it's your turn to count to 100.

how can there not be enough space when there's so much space?
ironic, isn't it.

I didn't know what you wanted,
I don't know what you want,
I won't know what you want.

funny enough, I don't think you have the answers either.

strange, how monthly you pick and choose what's best for you.
tell me what you want, but I'll think what I want.
worst part is when hopes replace wants and fairy tales seem plausible.
but that's silly, isn't it.

who knows what who wants.
i said my piece, and I'm not a girl who repeats things like these.
perhaps it wasn't meant to be?

but then what do I do now, when this space is too big but not big enough.





ps I will never tell you this, but you may be the worst.
you suck for what you did/do.
I always was a champ at hide and seek.

OH LEGIT.

how i could just keep him
he is perfect, and soft, and sweet.
what more do you want.

best <3<3<3


i less than three you.